Hindistan\u2019a ilk gitti\u011fim zaman\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Ayak bast\u0131\u011f\u0131m andan itibaren sordu\u011funuz sorular\u0131n her birinin sizi bir masal \u00fclkesine g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bir diyara ad\u0131m atm\u0131\u015f bulunuyordum. Daha ayak bast\u0131\u011f\u0131m o ilk ad\u0131mdan itibaren sorular\u0131n hi\u00e7 t\u00fckenmeyece\u011fini, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu \u00fclkenin gizeminin bug\u00fcne kadar hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclemedi\u011fini ve \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclemeyece\u011fini biliyordum. Gelen cevaplar\u0131nsa, hi\u00e7 biri, tam anlam\u0131yla elinizle tutabildi\u011finiz cevaplar olmuyordu. Mitolojik, ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fc hik\u00e2yeler, efsaneler, mucizeler bar\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131yordu i\u00e7inde. O an anlad\u0131m; Hindistan\u2019da, i\u00e7inde yasad\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fcnyam\u0131 kilitleyip, anahtar\u0131n\u0131 dibi balc\u0131kla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc bir gol\u00fcn dibine atmam gerekiyordu. Bu yenid\u00fcnyada anahtara ihtiya\u00e7 yoktu, eskisinden kurtulmak, geride b\u0131rakmak, bu gizemli d\u00fcnyan\u0131n t\u00fcm kap\u0131lar\u0131 ard\u0131na kadar ac\u0131yordu. O an inan\u0131lmaz bir rahatl\u0131k ve hafiflik hissettim. Art\u0131k ger\u00e7ek olan, yaln\u0131zca dokunabildi\u011fim ya da g\u00f6rebildi\u011fim de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ger\u00e7ekler, art\u0131k hep ac\u0131y\u0131 ifade eden \u2018Ama Meltem ger\u00e7ek hayat bu iste\u2019 ibaresinden olu\u015fmuyordu. Hindistan\u2019da her g\u00fcn bir mucize ya\u015fan\u0131yor, re-enkarnasyon hayatin bir par\u00e7as\u0131 kabul ediliyor-sorgulanm\u0131yor, gece \u00e7ocuklar uyucuya ge\u00e7meden \u00f6nce anlat\u0131lan ve i\u00e7inde ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fc g\u00fc\u00e7lere sahip kahramanlar\u0131n bulundu\u011fu masallar,\u2019ger\u00e7ek hayat\u2019 kabul ediliyordu artik bu yeni diyarda. Ve ben her \u2018bu ne ?\u2019 diye sordu\u011fumda, zincirlerimden, beni esir alan somutlardan biraz daha uzakla\u015f\u0131yor, eskiden duyacak olsam \u2019hayal urunu\u2019 diye es ge\u00e7ece\u011fim kanatl\u0131 cevaplar, ger\u00e7e\u011fim oluyorlard\u0131. Her cevap, bir kusun \u00e7\u0131rpt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kanatlar gibi, \u00f6nce yava\u015f\u00e7a sonra h\u0131zlanarak beni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerimin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan kurtararak, herseyin m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011fu yeni bir d\u00fcnyaya ta\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hindistan\u2019da dola\u015f\u0131rken kars\u0131ma en \u00e7ok \u00e7\u0131kan ve merak\u0131m\u0131 uyand\u0131ran, adim bas\u0131 kars\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kan fil basl\u0131, insan v\u00fccutlu tanr\u0131 heykeliydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-\u2018Bu ne?\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-\u2018O \u2018Ganesh\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu k\u0131sa cevabin orada noktalanmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok iyi biliyordum. Noktalanmad\u0131 da\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
GANESH\u2019\u0130N HIKAYES\u0130:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hindu dininin en \u00f6nemli tanr\u0131s\u0131 \u015eiva ve kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 olur. \u00c7ocuk do\u011fduktan k\u0131sa bir sure sonra S\u0131va sava\u015fa gider ve uzun y\u0131llar d\u00f6nmez. Bu sava\u015flar boyunca hep karisini \u00f6zler, hayalini kurar, d\u00f6nece\u011fi g\u00fcn\u00fc hayal eder. Sava\u015flar sona erince \u015eiva b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00f6zlemle evinin yolunu tutar. Ad\u0131mlar ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7er, ayaklar\u0131 onu sevdi\u011fine otururken adeta birbirleriyle yar\u0131\u015fan ve \u015eiva\u2019y\u0131 kar\u0131s\u0131na biraz daha yakla\u015ft\u0131ran iki sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131 gibi olmu\u015flard\u0131r. \u015eiva evine gelip ta yatak odalar\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 gen\u00e7 bir erke\u011fe sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015fken bulur. Kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n bu ihanetinden dolay\u0131 \u00f6fkeden ve k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131ktan deliye donen \u015eiva, gen\u00e7 erke\u011fin kafas\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131l\u0131c\u0131yla u\u00e7urur. Karisi dizlerinin \u00fczerine adeta y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r. \u2018\u015eiva ne yapt\u0131n\u2019 der. \u2018O bizim o\u011flumuzdu\u2019. O\u011fullar\u0131 gecen y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f gen\u00e7 bir adam olmu\u015ftu. Bunu hesaba katmayan \u015eiva, bir anl\u0131k \u00f6fkesi sonucu kendi kan\u0131ndan olan o\u011flunu \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. \u015eiva y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r. Karisi, \u015eiva\u2019ya, ne yapmas\u0131n\u0131 ne etmesini ama o\u011flunu geri getirmesini s\u00f6yler. \u015eiva tanr\u0131lara dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Tanr\u0131lar ona tek bir yolun oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylerler. \u015eiva evden \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131r. Kars\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc insanin bas\u0131, evlad\u0131n\u0131n kinin yerine ge\u00e7ecektir. \u015eiva hemen kendini evden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 atar, ancak ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc canl\u0131, bir fil oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in, \u015eiva\u2019n\u0131n o\u011flu, fil basl\u0131 bir Tanr\u0131 olur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
GE\u00c7M\u0130\u015e ZAMAN MAHKUMLARI:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ge\u00e7mi\u015f zaman mahk\u00fbmlar\u0131 i\u00e7in zaman, en mutlu olunan donemde durmu\u015ftur. Bir arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n babas\u0131n\u0131n anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131na gore; b\u00fcy\u00fck sava\u015flarda at\u0131lan bombalar, d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerdeki saatlerin hepsini durdururmu\u015f. Saatler \u00f6ylesine b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sars\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 kald\u0131ramazlarm\u0131\u015f. \u00c7o\u011fu ki\u015fi, ister \u00f6l\u00fcm, ister yitirilmi\u015f bir a\u015fk, ister hastal\u0131k, ister ihanetle sonu\u00e7lanm\u0131\u015f bir dostluk olsun, t\u00fcm kay\u0131plar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan ilk g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 yanaklarda s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp de kalplerde ve y\u00fcreklerde a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 o derin yaradan sonra, art\u0131k ge\u00e7mi\u015fteki mutlu an\u0131lar\u0131n k\u00f6lesi olmam\u0131\u015f m\u0131d\u0131r? Kalbin tik tak\u2019leri duyulmaz olmam\u0131\u015f m\u0131d\u0131r art\u0131k?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tek ama\u00e7 o eski g\u00fczel g\u00fcnleri yasamak, gideni geri getirmek de\u011fil midir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ancak giden, hi\u00e7 bir zaman eski haliyle gelmiyor. Gidenin ard\u0131ndan gecen zaman, her g\u00fcn her saat her saniye, gideni biraz daha tanr\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor g\u00f6zlerde. \u0130lahla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Arada gecen zamanda d\u00f6k\u00fclen g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131, ge\u00e7irilen ac\u0131lar, ya\u015fanan sevin\u00e7ler bir \u015feyleri de\u011fi\u015ftiriyor. Giden geri gelse de, hi\u00e7 bir zaman ayni olmuyor. Giden, masumiyetini , temizli\u011fini, safl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 geride b\u0131rak\u0131yor. Geri geldi\u011finde art\u0131k tan\u0131makta zorluk \u00e7ekece\u011finiz bir Tanr\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f oluyor. Her gidi\u015f geli\u015finde uzuvlar\u0131 biraz daha de\u011fi\u015fiyor, onu sevme nedenlerinizi kaybediyor , g\u00f6zlerinize ve ruhunuza her defas\u0131nda fark\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Geriye yapacak tek bir \u015fey kal\u0131yor\u2026 Onunla ilgili an\u0131lar\u0131 g\u00f6mmek de\u011fil. Her g\u00fcn ziyaret edebilece\u011finiz bir ANI-T dikmek ama gitmesine izin vermek \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc geri geldi\u011finde o hi\u00e7 bir zaman ayni olmayacak\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne yalan s\u00f6yleyeyim Hindistan\u2019dan hi\u00e7 d\u00f6nmek istemedim. Ama d\u00f6nece\u011fim g\u00fcn pazardan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir Ganesh heykeli ald\u0131m. Hala odam\u0131n bir k\u00f6sesini s\u00fcsl\u00fcyor.An\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 sevmemi, ok\u015famam\u0131, ama yenilerini yasamaktan korkmamam\u0131 soyluyor.Beni yine Hindistan\u2019a cagriyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eubat 2003\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Hindistan\u2019a ilk gitti\u011fim zaman\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Ayak bast\u0131\u011f\u0131m andan itibaren sordu\u011funuz sorular\u0131n her birinin sizi bir masal \u00fclkesine g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bir diyara ad\u0131m atm\u0131\u015f bulunuyordum. Daha ayak bast\u0131\u011f\u0131m o ilk ad\u0131mdan itibaren sorular\u0131n hi\u00e7 t\u00fckenmeyece\u011fini, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu \u00fclkenin gizeminin bug\u00fcne kadar hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclemedi\u011fini ve \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclemeyece\u011fini biliyordum. Gelen cevaplar\u0131nsa, hi\u00e7 biri, tam anlam\u0131yla elinizle tutabildi\u011finiz cevaplar olmuyordu. Mitolojik, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[23],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-821","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kose-yazilari"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/821","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=821"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/821\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":822,"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/821\/revisions\/822"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=821"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=821"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melteminan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=821"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}